It has been far too long since I have written a blog entry. Anyone who knows me knows that I am going through some changes in my life right now and might roll their eyes when I start talking about love. I have recently found the love of my life and I will be married to him in 18 days. So I decided I would write a little about what I learned about love since the past year of changes has happened in my life.
I have spent the last 18 years of my life searching for my other half. I never knew whether or not God would bless me with a relationship like this, but I always hoped and prayed that He would. Since the 1st grade when I had my very first crush, I have been looking for some man that would be able to complete me. I thought I knew what I wanted, and that was whatever I had at the time. I even began to develop patterns and I thought that was how it had to be in relationships and that was probably how it would be if I ever found a man. I have preparing to settle, based on what I thought I would be able to attain. I was prepared to accept things the way they were. But God had another plan.
When I met Nicholas, I never, in my wildest dreams, would have thought a guy like him would be interested in a girl like me and I didn't really think he was what I wanted either. It didn't take long to see that a guy like him COULD actually fall madly and ridiculously in love with a girl like me... and he was actually better than I could have ever imagined. We are very different and he is nothing like what I thought I wanted, but exactly what I needed. He is patient and kind with me when I am impatient. He is loving and needs me as much as I need him. He is protecting and strong so he's able to protect. He is funny, goofy, and not serious when no one else will play around with me. He is adventurous and likes to try new things and never leaves me bored. Most of all, he loves the Lord so much and wants to honor Him and help me to honor Him just as much.
When I think about falling in love with him, I know that there is said to be no such thing. You do not fall into Love. But it definitely came on unexpectedly. I really liked him and I thought he was awesome, but it wasn't until one day when I realized that I was in love. I would do anything for him and never wanted to be without him... and I had fallen.
I wont linger on our love forever, because I know that rarely do people care about your love as much as the two involved. However Nicholas and I know what love means. Love means choosing to witness each others lives and attest to the importance of it. Love means to actively die to myself everyday in order to put him first. Love means glorifying God by enjoying each other and lifting each other up in prayer and praise. Love means a lot of things that don't involve butterflies and giggles. Love means tears and pain and patience. Love is forever and longer. Love is devotion to God first, and your love second.
I hope all of you get the chance to love like this.
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