I don't know about everyone else in the world, but my head is the busiest place at all parts of my conscious state. As soon as I wake up my mind starts planning, solving, replaying, conspiring, and considering. My mind really never stops moving 100 miles an hour unless...
mUSiC
This is the one thing that gets my mind to stop working. I can just focus on the words and my voice as I generally am belting right along with my Glee star of choice.
The thing that confuses me the most is when God calls us to quiet our hearts before Him. I don't have the slightest idea what that means or what that would feel like. I am equating my heart with my mind here and I know that can be dangerous, but I honestly don't know what it feels like to be quiet.
I can hardly get my thoughts to simmer down enough to get a prayer out. Half the time I start a prayer and i'm in the middle of it and something sets my thoughts off again and then I get down one of those rabbit trails, but to show the enormity of it, let's call it an elephant's trail, and it's near impossible to focus on talking to God.
Take for instance... I was on a run this evening and I was listening to music and even with the music on, because I can't sing and run, my mind was working. I started thinking and thinking and all of a sudden I decided, "My thoughts are out of control. I think that I'll write about it and call the blog 'Voices in My Head.' And now I pulled open my computer and plopped down in my comfy velvet chair and started to write. I got about 2 sentences out before my mind switched directions and I ran out of things to say in this blog. So I sat back and let the elephant trails roll by for about 15 minutes, until finally i realized my diner was getting cold and I hadn't even finished this dumb post, which has no
point.
Maybe I'll stick to photography where I better know how to express myself.
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